Watching and listening to the Gashyqtyq music video, I see the look on Dimash's face and can feel how intense his emotions are. But when I read the subtitles and see the translation of 'gashyqtyq' to 'infatuation', I cannot believe it. Infatuation is such a 'poor' word because it is something fleeting and disappears too fast. Yes, it is intense but it is too shallow an emotion to merit the level of passion in Dimash's singing.  I also know that a story is always best understood in its original language and translations can only hope to offer pale shadows of the tale. So today I decided to find out what 'Gashyqtyq' actually meant and this is what I found on the Internet. "Gashyqtyq" (pronounced Hash-Shya-Terk) is a Kazakh term for a profound, deep, and often, painful state of being in love, transcending mere infatuation. It represents a spiritual closeness, intense passion, and total emotional attachment where the loved one occupies you...

 It is a holiday in my country, so I had some time to get enough rest and take a deep dive into the fandom, seeing what I had missed.  And of course I had to listen to Gashyqtyq properly.  A quiet room and with Bang Olufsen speakers. Dimash creates such beauty with his singing... he makes the words spellbinding, gently spiralling around his listeners, binding them with such achingly heartbreaking emotion.  I can feel so much pain but cannot break free, I don't want to break free... it is like looking into the darkest parts of the soul, so deep and fathomless...  I fear what I might see but I cannot look away. I do not think I can ever hear Kazakh words spoken without feeling what Dimash has poured into his songs.  In my mind, Kazakh is now a language of deepest emotion and absolute beauty.  Gashyqtyq (Infatuation) (music and lyrics by Dimash Qudaibergen) I am a captive of your radiance The light that warmed the autumn air And pierced the darkness with ...